Thursday, January 21, 2010

"Mental" Pause Day 2 of Awareness


Okay. So my husband was telling me some simple story this morning. About a guy and an email and something to do with Haiti. I mean, I think that is what it was. As I stared at him blankly across the kitchen table, my face scrunched up in deep concentration, I recognized English words coming out of his mouth. Yes, even full-blown sentences were escaping into the warm, cozy atmosphere. Yet, somehow, my brain could not process what it was he was saying. He was quite animated about it. It seemed interesting enough. I just couldn't grasp the meaning of his words. As I tried my best communicating skills; clarify, paraphrase, repeat, it only served to exacerbate the problem. He finally stopped talking and looked at me. I swear, I glanced in the mirror on the wall to see if I had sprouted a second head or something. The look on his face was unforgettable. Well, I'd like to think it was unforgettable. But with this new phase of "mental" pause I seem to be going through, it is highly likely that I will indeed forget that look. In fact, I am betting that one day I will give a similar look across the kitchen table to the man talking and wonder, "who in the hell is that?"

I never did figure out what he was talking about. But I did manage to fake it long enough to escape, yawning and stretching and mumbling something about going back to bed. He bought it long enough for me to snuggle back down in the covers and go to sleep.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

HELP I'M GOING CRAZY

Warning. This is a blog that won't seem to fit in the "Simple Pleasures" category I seem to have established in this space. But my coping mechanism is humor and humor is a simple pleasure, so it works out.

I am in the lovely throes of perimenopause. Or "mental" pause, as I am beginning to see it for what it really is. A "mental" pause from life as I know it.

I was in the car the other day, armed with a "don't forget to do" list. I managed the first item on the list. Then I forgot where I put the list. And I was screwed. None of the other things on my "don't forget to do" list got done. Not even after I found the list stuck to my underwear. Don't ask me how it got there. I don't remember. But I am guessing it was on one of my many trips to the bathroom that seem to be a necessity in my life these days.

I've misplaced the list again. And yes, I checked my underwear. It's not there either. I know there are things on there that are vitally important that I get them done.

And I will.

Will what?

Damn. I've forgotten.